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Name: Josh
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Metro: Bowling green
Birthday: 10/8/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: bass, music, soccer, baseball, youth group, ER (the show) and House.
Expertise: well, i dont know if im an EXPERT, but im pretty darn good at bass (im also an expert at being a slobbering idiot around every girl my age)
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  Crono910
Member Since:
9/2/2005
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| so this past week and a half has been very awesome. last Friday Adrianne came into town and stayed for a week. the next Friday her and I drove back down to Kentucky in my mom's van.
so i leave here tomorrow around noon-ish-1:00pm. thats sad to think about. but at the same time I'm happy because I'm a lot farther than with my goals than i thought i might be. well, maybe not than what i thought, i guess i hoped/expected this, but it's just really surprising because I've never been able to save this much money all at once and be able to not spend it. i feel a lot more grown up than i did a month ago. i have a good job. my bosses think I'm awesome. 2 out 4 of my manager's both told me that they love me and i get things done. i like it so far. nothing to complain... well... except for that god forsaken nasty red apron they make you wear when they ask you to go talk to people out on the floor.
i love Adrianne. i wish i could show her how awesome she is. I've never been like this with anyone before. i couldn't have dreamed of someone as amazing as her. it won't be too long before i see her again. only 10 days. but still, that's 14,400 minutes (give or take a few) more than i would like. but i can't really help that now can i?
anyway, i love her with all i am. stand back all you other girls! I'm taken!
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| i take a moment to stop and look at my life... and try to think of all the things that make me truly happy in this world... wanna know what goes through my head?
Adrianne Leigh Taylor... what can i say? she is my everything now. there isn't another person i can imagine seeing myself with. i wouldn't change one single thing about our relationship... except for maybe all those boos she's drinking.... wait... she's not drinking! hey!!! you!!! you!.... yooooou!....... i don't know what's wrong with me. could have something to do with the fact that i'm dead tired and extremely sore from God knows what...
Adrianne's dad read a few verses to the both of us today. i liked them a lot. they were from Mathew... I'm not sure which part... go find it ya lazies!!! but it was about idolatry. Jesus said that idolatry is not just about worshiping a statue other than God. it's also putting ANYTHING before God. interesting... i'm very touched by this, but only because i'm soooooooo guilty of this reason. how many times could i stop in the day and hold a conversation with God? holding personally time over talking to God seems like idolatry to me too. I'm not saying that you have to be talking to God non-stop ALL day long, but it seems like we have soooooooo much time in our day just to stop and drop a line to the big guy upstairs. and honestly, the whole "i don't have time in my day to pray" is a bunch a bull. holy cow, I'm about to sound like every pastor in America that every teen hates!!! but do you drive? do you go places by bus? or are given rides by someone? what do you do while you are driving? listen to music? now, if you know me, you know i love music... but come on! listening to music when you could be praying to you God, when you haven't yet today is a good example of the idolatry we ALL struggle with.
who's heard about the sermon on the mount? well, the sermon on the mount was when Jesus laid it out. you have to not do specific things, like don't hate/murder, don't commit adultery/lust after another, turn the other cheek, go the extra mile, give the extra amount. basically be perfect... as you all know... that isn't happening... i think Jesus was trying to make a point here... not only are we all screwed, but we are all screwed equally. Jesus says "NO ONE come to the Father but through me."
well, i'm done... i need sleep...
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| "Best Of Me"
tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up
here we lay again
on two separate beds
riding phone lines
to meet a familiar voice
and pictures drawn from memory
we reflect on miscommunication
and misunderstandings
and missing each other too
much to have had to let go
we turn our music down
and we whisper
say what your thinking right now
tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up
jumping to conclusions
made me fall away from you
i'm so glad that the truth
has brought back together me and you
we're sitting on the ground
and we whisper
say what your thinking outloud
tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up
we turn our music down
and we whisper
we're sitting on the ground
and we whisper
we turn our music down
we're sitting on the ground
and next time i'm in town
we will kiss girl
we will kiss girl
tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont
feeling that we cant
we're not ready to give up
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up | | |
| yeah, i know i haven't updated since forever, but yeah... i figured now might be a good time. I know almost everyone knows, and that not many people still read this, but who cares. if no one reads this then why does that matter?
anyway...... i'm getting married. yeah, i know! shocking huh? and the first thing that pops into your head is: "aren't you young?" or "OH. well, you're not ready!"..... lemme stop you right there. look, i know i'm not ready.... FINANCIALLY.... YET... basically i'm going to own a business before summer and i'll be putting away about 85% of my income. so by the fall/winter time we'll be getting married. i acquired permission from her father almost a month ago, and our parents couldn't be happier! so believe me, I'm not going into this blind or anything like that.
just tell yourself that you're not smarter than or thought ahead of me. believe me, I'M NOT STUPID. I've thought and prayed about this for many hours and had any talks with Jim (Adrianne's pops) and my parents about this. i have everyone's approval so yeah, if you have any objections to say to me... well lets not go there....i know what i am doing and there really isn't anything anyone can say to me other than Adrianne or Adrianne's dad that can stop me.
I'm not saying this cause anyone said anything, i'm tryin to stop people from wasting their breathe. I don't mean to sound angry or anything like that, i just know that i love her and that i am going to spend the rest of my life with her.
yep....... i'm done!
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| "Reason To Believe"
Oh sweet lungs don't fail me now
Your burning has turned into fear
That trails me in my every step, I'm moving quick but you're always on my heels
Just one more breath, I beg you please
Just one more step, my knees are weak
My heart is sturdy but it needs you to survive
My heart is sturdy but it needs you
Breathe, don't you want to breathe?
I know that you are strong enough to handle what I need
My capillaries scream, there's nothing left to feed on
My body needs a reason to cross that line
Will you carry me there one more time?
Steady lungs, don't fail me now
I feel you bursting but you won't let me die
Fill me up with every step
I'm feeling sick, but I'm leaving it behind
Just one long breath I beg you please
Just one more step you are not weak
My legs are sturdy but they need you to survive
My heart is sturdy but I need you
Breathe, don't you want to breathe?
And know that you are strong enough to handle what I need
My capillaries scream, there's nothing left to feed on
My body needs a reason to cross that line
Will you carry me there once more?
I have reason to believe that I have victories to taste
I can feel them on my teeth, upon my lips and in my chest
I can roll them on my tongue, they are more supple than defeat
I feel the tension in my lungs and every move is fueled by my resolve to
Breathe, don't you want to breathe?
I know that you are strong enough to handle what I need
My capillaries scream, there's nothing left to feed on
My body needs a reason to cross that line
Will you carry me there one more time? | | |
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